Still falling

Another day and another lecture, apparently Everything I do isn't good enough. And I mean who am I to argue with almost everyone around me hell I agree with them anyhow, I have no ambition, I'm adequate at anything I do and the things I really want to do in my future I can't because the fields are limited and I just don't have the talent for them. I'm 17 years old and a total loser, I have one real female friend who I have to take care of like she is a small child because her family is a catastrophe and she can barely handle it. Maybe just maybe sometimes I need someone to take care of ME for a change but god forbid I let that happen because that would be showing my weakness and I just can't do that I can't. I desperately need to get passed this mental roadblock because the depression is getting so much worse and I don't know how much longer I can deal with it, I just can't do this anymore.

HELP

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Done

I really want my boyfriend right now. Ugh I havnt had a real conversation with him in almost a month. And I just miss him between stopping my friends from committing suicide and trying to kill thier mom! Idk what to do anymore I think I'm going to explode from needing mental and sexual relief dear God someone kill me NOW!!

Comments....

god my mom is a witch, my aunt is getting married and im supposed to walk in the wedding... my mom decided that if i dont wear a girdle i cant walk so apperantly im not gonna walk. my mom needs to get over the fact that im fat its really annoying to have her on my case all the time because im not a freaking supermodel geez.
in other news i went to the founders day festival yesterday with blaine and it was so much fun i got to see my friend jesica *from japanese class* and hand an amazing gyro

BOREDOM!!!!!!!1