Stupid, Stupid, Stupid.....

UGH! why can't I do anything right, I had made a decision and I decided to hang out with Damon and like an idiot I fell into the old trap of loving him. I don't know what to do but here I am living with the same mistakes. Maybe one day I will have the willpower to back away from a bad situation but I guess that day is not today, lets just hope this never escalates otherwise I will be fucked. I still want Damon but I don't want to be used, I feel like I trust him so much and to him I'm just this lying bitch and I stupidly let him walk all over me :( I quit....