Change!

So my bf has a new work schedule now and its really interesting, because now he is going to be working weekdays 2pm-11pm I'm kinda excited and kinda scared.... before he was working the graveyard shift (10pm-7am) so we had some trouble coordinating a conversation where neither of us wanted to pass out now hes gonna be home at 11:15ish and we should get to talk more but where hes staying he is having trouble setting up his PS3 so we cant chat just yet and that brings back the fear from when he first told me he was working doing something different and wasn't gonna be staying at home...... am i gonna lose my Anthony? i don't think so just yet but the universe/god/karma always seem to like to mess with me and him. then again my friend Justin (who had spent a vast majority of the time we talk trying to tell me my relationship would inevitably fail) has finally given up and thinks me and my baby will be happy together!

Thats News to Me.....

My Best Friend, Jordana, informed me today that i am a chubby chaser when i told her i like "bigger" girls.... i didn't know there was a word for it.... (~^_^~) I'm just slightly embarrassed. but you know what i think its fun so =P small girls are a lot grosser than big girls!

I Wonder.....

ok do you ever wonder what your future is gonna be like? well i do all the time and you know what its interesting what i come up with, sometimes i see myself with Anthony in exotic places other times i see us in a small home in the suburbs watching the kids play in the yard. but you know every now and again i see my parents showing up at the door and im over there having a F*<%!^& panic attack because "i have to marry a chaldean boy" and i didnt do that.... WTF was i supposed to do, listen to my parents and wind up miserable for my entire life?? im not a fucking puppet i think i deserve to be happy! but one day ill have to deal with the latter thing happening... i think ill have Anthony tell them =* lol nah i think ill text them after im married... yeah thats the safest idea. UGH!!! idk the only thing i know for sure is that i really really really want to be with Anthony now and forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever (so on and so forth)

boredom.

church was so boring! but today i didnt go to school i went to visit (and shadow at) oakland early college and that was boring too!! honestly the best part of my day was probably talking to anthony on blaines phone, it was only a couple of minutes but it was really nice <3

Better Late than Never

OMG OMG OMG!!! My bf's mom knows we are together and that we love each other!!! SOOOOO EXCITED!!! OK so I'm a brides maid for my aunt who's getting married in August, and at the bridal shower i snuck off and called my bf (on my cousins phone) and he was with his mom he told her where i was and why and she said that i needed to hurry up and catch the bouquet because she needed a daughter in law, i thought she was just messing with Anthony but he later told me that she knew who i was and how we felt about each other. to say the least i was in a great mood for a party i didn't really want to be at.

IM BAAAACK!!!

OK, so break down has been over with since like September (sorry) but my dad official hates my moms entire family except My aunt Rasha whom it is impossible to hate unless you are evil. yes short sweet and to the point, I'm back, I'm alive, I'm with MY Anthony and i have my car (and license)... ty ty ty lol